Fit with Ruthie

Yesterday was my 45th birthday. FOURTY FIVE I look at that number and simply cannot believe its true. Do I have issues about getting older? Well, most people i know would rather be younger... but whats a girl to do? I struggled to try to find a way to celebrate. The runner in me wants to get out there and run a half marathon, but reality is i simply cannot do that. Physically my weeks are packed and sometimes I do wonder about over training. I have to be conscious of not doing too much.... HA... thats funny. ... To think in 2006-2007 when I started blogging here the concept of over training wasnt even in my realm  of thinking. Most days I was exhausted.  I could barely get off the couch much less dance for an hour! ha! ... .... .. anyway.. So, running is out. (sorry for the ramble) I also seriously considered another ear piercing, and even a nose piercing.. (ha) .. but I couldn't bring myself to go thru the pain of it all.  So.. no fancy fun way to celebrate...

In this world we try to fit in .. We grow up with expectations to be unique but not too unique. The world expects us to not become too radical, the world whispers "oh u cant do this or that cause people would talk about you, look at u like your crazy." Everyone wants to fit it. Everyone wants to be excepted, it's not easy feeling uneasy in a group. I want to know how I got so stuck, in my 20s and 30s how did I get so lost, my uniqueness, my joy was fading away. Get married, get a job, have kids, get a car, get a house, go to girls night or ladies bible class and talk the hours away about our hopes and dreams... Or more than likely about how miserable we were.... work/sacrifice/put yourself last and complain the whole way. I was stressed to the hilt, worn out, exhausted...all I wanted was a trip to Olive Garden and a movie to check out of busy life. I was so tired of trying to fit in. I felt like something was wrong but I couldn't figure out what. I have always bee...

This whole health and fitness blogging thing started with the goal of making it through ONE DAY making healthy choices. Workout, Eat Right, Rest Right.... it all seemed so simple but so difficult. I havent had time for much of anything this summer. I have been very busy. GOOD Busy. A busy I never dreamed of. This summer has been filled with Personal Training sessions and Dancing for HOURS with kids, grownups and myself LOL. I have LOVED every minute. LOVED! The bad news is I have pretty much given up the running life. My life as a runner is on hold for a while, and thats ok. I have mourned my love of running, those quiet hours of the early morning when I was alone with God and the world. But you know whats cool? When we focus on making sure we combine mind, body, and soul in our health and fitness programs, GOD shows UP! What I missed desperately was my time with God. Music in my ears, blasting praises to him, refocusing my mind and soul and challenging me to be more, better, fa...

Pity party post Ok so first my detox went pretty well... Except for the fact I needed to plan ahead better to have more ripe fruit etc... Eating mostly raw vegan is nice... But it's difficult for me to stay that way... I think more than anything I have yet to fully work thru the emotions of being a celiac. Seriously... Sometimes it just sucks... I mean I am thankful I found an answer to my exhaustion, stomach aches, hair loss, painful other things (the list goes on and on) But somedays IT SUCKS everywhere I go ... Anything I eat I have to question what it will do to me... Not is is good for me or healthy or taste good or am I in the mood for it... But WILL THIS MAKE ME SICK imagine that... Food... Making you sick. Imagine 99% of items in the grocery store making you ill. THEN There are the moments when you just want a small taste of some thing because some e else is going on and on about how wonderful it tastes... And so you taste it .... Amd just the one tas...

I have had my share of food addictions over the past 40 years. Three Musketeers bars, crackers, Cheerios, Cokes... Just to name a few... I am here to fess up once again... I have a nagging addiction that I love and hate. (Ha that's addiction isn't it) It all started around Christmas time, holiday shopping, cold weather, and candy canes ...... Yep candy canes. The seemingly innocent cane of candy was peppermint heaven to me!!! Since realizing my relations to gluten laden foods I have pretty much stopped any and all candy eating. Gone are the days of grabbing whatever while I waiting in line at the check out. Now I realize that 99% of the foods on that display were making me sick. And so it was for peppermint candy canes....I was eating gluten free but I started feeling awful... Exhausted. It took a fees for me to figure out not all candy canes are created equal.. And yes the ones I was eating contained gluten. So then I found BOBS .. Bobs candy canes were gluten free and I...

What inspires me always and forever is the "looser", the one at the end who despite the odds never gives up. The ones who refuses to listen to the voices inside their own heads that they can't, won't, or shouldn't.. Ignoring that voice that tells them "why even try, I will probably fail again." What inspires me is the one who struggles for success everyday instead of quitting. What inspires me is the person who does things quietly, not wishing to draw attention but happily reaching day by day towards a goal. What inspires me is the person who works sooooooooo hard and gives their all but barely passes, and many times fails...only to try again. What inspires me are the people at the back of the room, the ones at the back of the pack...the ones who don't want to be noticed..because THOSE people overcame their fear and doubt and did it anyway. I LOVE the gentle giants, the grace-filled hopefuls, the ones who do things for t...

Ok so here were my thoughts during zumba tonight Wow look at all these people... Hope they have fun I love when they chat with each other during class! ( I really do!!!) Yeah... My pants are falling down again shoot I need new pants Ugh I need Gatorade Oh no.. How does this song go? ... Oh yeah... Now I remember What's next? Too loud Hope I dont fall off the stage My left is their right my left is their right Maybe I can touch the ceiling.. I never get to do that... Nope My feet feel great Not loud enough Man I should have eatin more today Good grief who made this playlist She's leaving early.. So glad she was able to come Oh no ..what's wrong with her.. Oh she is sneezing.. Ok good. Man I am tired... But I need this What's next? Oh I LOVE this song! Is everyone ok? Oh wow.. That's mc I thought she was a college girl! I am such a goof why did I just do that I hope they feel welcome here Man I hope it's not too hard.. I am tired ... Oop...