Fit with Ruthie

I AM SICK AND TIRED OF PAIN... I am discouraged, sad, and mad all at the same time. Last week for 4 days I had little to NO PAIN! I was so happy  even ran a few blocks and felt NO PAIN! Then one day we had a "staycation"... we did a lot of sitting, at the movies, going out to eat etc..... The next day (Wednesday) my pain was back worse than ever! Its so very discouraging. Mentally its so hard to be a running coach and not be able to run. I FEEL LIKE A BUM!!! I hate I can't go run 4 or 5 miles while I am coaching. hate it. I have no answers as to what to do but continue to ice, stretch, ice, sleep in my boot, ice and stretch. I refuse shots and i refuse surgery. I keep telling myself that at least I can zumba! Atleast I can be active and break a huge sweat. But you know how it is people... zumba is not running. A Runner NEEDS to run. So... here I am again... on the downward spiral that is life getting in the way .... I know I will be starting over again some da...

I posted a few days back about some hidden gluten I ingested and of course paid the price. It was so very frustrating to be 9 days gluten free and feeling so much better and to have that happen. Well... it happened again! Saturday something I thought was gluten free wasnt.  I experience stomach pains, exhaustion and major bloating since Saturday. ... It sucked. Something MUST change. ... You remember over a year ago when i found I had a cyst in my breast ( you can read that post here ).. I went mostly raw vegan for 3 weeks. I FELT AMAZING.... the cyst was healed and I swore that I would never return to my previous way of eating. I was determined to be raw vegan for the rest of my life. .. why would  I ever choose any other way of eating. Well, one of the main reasons I felt so wonderful during that time was because I was a celiac. Raw Vegan eating contains NO gluten... so for those 3 weeks I ingested no gluten! I remember the last week woke up full of energy after only ...

   Had a great 4th of July. We have a neighborhood parade that starts in front of my house... Its the 1 time a year that the fire truck parks blocking my driveway, which is great fun!.... I told the firefighters yesterday its every year I am so happy to see them and every year I say a prayer I wont see them in front of my house until next july 4th :)  Above is a photo of my breakfast :)    May daughter spent the morning putting tatoos on everyone.... I ended up with God Bless the USA... which is fine but my first choice was "Life Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness" I would have loved to have Happiness on my bicep.. ha..  But it got messed up so I ended up with USA. Its ok. I still felt like a patriotic rebel. Yesterday morning Coach allowed me to go for a 2 mile run around campus... I was sooooooo happy. My heel hurt until about a mile into it then I was mostly pain free. I, of course, paid the price for that run later in the day but oh m...

I am a pretty up beat person... I dont cry much... I have LOTS to be thankful for.... but today (and probably tomorrow).. I will be ok with crying.... I will be ok with being a bit sad. Tomorrow is July 4th. Independence day... Its the day in my year that has become something I look forward too.... The past 4 years I have run 13.1 miles on July 4th. Its a tradition I started and thought I would never miss. .... but... here I am sad about tomorrow. Part of becoming healthy and fit means we have to find balance. I had to do this when I was just starting out.... figuring out how not to push too hard and knock myself out of the game for 4 days because of soreness. I had to figure out how to manage life and family and illness. Its a tricky thing to figure out .... you see this weight loss business is soooo much more mental than physical. I could physically loose weight but to keep it off I had to deal with whats between my two ears. And here I am again. Mournful I cannot run. I miss...