Power Outage

I have been suffering the past 5 day or so with what I consider a power outage. My energy has been zapped... I have been having bouts of low blood pressure and have upped (again) my intake of water (which i had let slip) but today... was yet another day of just no get up in my GO>

UGH!

this afternoon when i was feeling really sluggish... (and I had been drinking my water really well recently!)
I decided to put on my hot kettle for a cup of London Tea and then I decided to experiement a bit. I cooked a flour tortilla in butter and put a half a teaspoon or so of table sugar and a tad of cinnamon on it. I ate the tortilla and pretty quickly i began to get my energy back. This caused me to stop and think for a bit.
When I was feeling GREAT and having loads of energy. I was getting my rest (IMPORTANT) and after my meals and snacks I was eating fruit or a balance of fruit and nuts. (for protein) ... well... over the past week..... i had stopped doing that. I would eat my meal and only have fruit once a day. I was eating carbs (in the form of veggies, and wheat bread) but that was it.

SO.

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Yeah.. thats what I feel like.. I feel like this this is just blabla blabla bla.. you know.. like the teacher on Peanuts? (wahwahwhawha)


I have probably written it 1000 times here on this blog but it comes down to balance. If my blood sugar is out of balance then I feel like crap. I can run or run walk however many miles and feel good for a little bit... but end the end.. what I eat drastically effects how i feel. How i feel drastically effects my day, my kids day, and my hubby's day.

I am pretty much wanting to through a temper tantrum right now. Being sugar sensitive and hypoglycemic really does suck. There is such a balancing act that has to take place in order to feel good. Its like I figured out what it finally feels like to feel GOOD and when I feel "normal" (what normal was from the time I was born until a year ago) .. I want no part of it. I want my power back!

Knowing that this is a process and I am still learning, i do cut myself some slack. I admit my blind eating has led me to be unconscious of my fuel intake. If i dont have the fuel I cannot have the energy i need to make it through the day. Mind you, I have NOT been eating bad. I have NOT been eating sugars, sodas, candies etc........and I must give myself a big pat on the back for not turning to sodas and crapsugars for my energy. In fact I have not even been tempted to drink my hubby's Dr Pepper thats been in the fridge all week (he saves it to eat with only pizza) . Nope, not this time... this time I was just not eating the balance that I needed.

So, as for the rest of my day.. after realizing what I had been doing the past few days.... I focused on doing something about it. I went to the grocery store, organized the fridge, and got quick high quality God sugars that I could grab and go. Tonight after my chicken, sweet tator and zuchini supper... I waited about an hour and had a few grapes and almonds. So far... feeling great.

I am also determined to get some much needed sleep tonight so that part of the puzzle is fixed as well. No track practice in the AM .. so I plan on sleeping as late as I can and go run whenever I feel like it.

No run today. had a HORRIBLE run on Sunday morning . did 4 miles walked most of the last 2 miles......again 0 energy! It was awful and left the trail sooo upset. what a waist of my time I thought. It pretty much just sucked. Well, except for the college kid walking the trail with headphones and an electric guitar .... yeah at 530am. I got a laugh out of it and thought "they're BAAAACK" hehe..

So, back to the only solution there is for me. Eating the way I know I need to eat. Resting the amount I know I need to rest. And.... running :)