Its interesting when things "hit us" isnt it. I had just gotten off the phone with my friend and was sitting "alone" on the back patio for just a few minutes when i a feeling of joy swept over me and i began to cry. I am crying as i type this.. because i am so over whelmed with where i have come from.
As i sat on the patio, i remembered back 2 years ago and in that instant it seemed like yesterday. My life then was happy but i was filled with self doubt, low body image, and little energy to get through the day. I had aches and pains from head to toe, I couldn't roll over in bed at night without pain. I wanted it to stop.. i wanted to feel good again.. and i knew i couldnt do it alone. I prayed. Just me laying quietly in bed. prayed. When i was finished I drifted off to sleep with a sense that I could change. I also new that it wouldnt be easy and that it would be work.
As i sat on he porch this morning i realized i have come so far! 2 years later i am TRAINING FOR A crazy MARATHON? ME?!! God has brought me to a point in my life where i can accept myself, he has shown me that life is about struggle and joy and triumph. Life is not handed to us on a silver platter and neither is health. We must all choose today if we are to be healthy or take for granted and abuse the body that God has blessed us with. No matter how far gone we might be we have a choice.
I am sharing this because i want YOU to know that God used you through this process to encourage me to keep going. I was overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by the fact that I am training for a Marathon. ME. 24 months ago i was hooked on ice cream and anxiously awaited the next episode of Smallville. Now.. i crave pineapple and blueberries and love running so much i cant wait to get out the door for my next run! I know for a fact that i will NOT be able to finish the training OR the race with Gods hand. I am sure this experience will change me in many ways... cant wait to see how. WOW... God is good isnt he?
As i sat on the patio, i remembered back 2 years ago and in that instant it seemed like yesterday. My life then was happy but i was filled with self doubt, low body image, and little energy to get through the day. I had aches and pains from head to toe, I couldn't roll over in bed at night without pain. I wanted it to stop.. i wanted to feel good again.. and i knew i couldnt do it alone. I prayed. Just me laying quietly in bed. prayed. When i was finished I drifted off to sleep with a sense that I could change. I also new that it wouldnt be easy and that it would be work.
As i sat on he porch this morning i realized i have come so far! 2 years later i am TRAINING FOR A crazy MARATHON? ME?!! God has brought me to a point in my life where i can accept myself, he has shown me that life is about struggle and joy and triumph. Life is not handed to us on a silver platter and neither is health. We must all choose today if we are to be healthy or take for granted and abuse the body that God has blessed us with. No matter how far gone we might be we have a choice.
I am sharing this because i want YOU to know that God used you through this process to encourage me to keep going. I was overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by the fact that I am training for a Marathon. ME. 24 months ago i was hooked on ice cream and anxiously awaited the next episode of Smallville. Now.. i crave pineapple and blueberries and love running so much i cant wait to get out the door for my next run! I know for a fact that i will NOT be able to finish the training OR the race with Gods hand. I am sure this experience will change me in many ways... cant wait to see how. WOW... God is good isnt he?
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thank you Ruthie, for paving away for others like you and I.