"I dont wanna
I do
I dont wanna
I do
I am not gonna
I am gonna
I dont feel good
I will feel better if I do
going back home
no your going to stay
but i dont wanna
but, no, really... you do."
THAT was my conversation with myself this morning. 5am, drizzling rain dark HUMID, I had NO energy. EVERYTHING was telling me to go home, get back in bed. I drove the car to campus. Parked. Sat there. "i dont wanna". I sat. .........
I started the car up, pulled out and started to leave....."I dont have any energy".. "I want to go home to bed"........Put it in reverse and parked again. "If i am here, i might as well"
I got out of the car, started walking, started running, "I dont wanna".... "I am going home"....turned around, took 10 steps ........"NO.. I can go home after a lap...only after 2 miles...THEN.. I can go home"
"you will feel better if you do it anyway"........
so
I sucked it up
I did it anyway.
I got to the car
I was still tired. no energy.
came home. happy I didnt it anyway. Husband was awake. did pushups with him. he had already done 20, 17, 15 ......So i did 20, 15, 10 and 5. Then... he threw my legs down.. for leg lifts I did 2 sets of 20 of those.. and they were HARD.. he was tough on me. .. ... and then I sat on his back while he did pushups (like Jillian does LOL)
I have now eaten breakfast, showered, and rested. I am happy I did my workout and look forward to having more energy tomorrow.
wonder why i have had this issue today?
You guessed it.
I ate too much sugar yesterday. I LOVE the fact I can feel what it does to my body now. I use to walk around in a daze, a blur, no energy, it was NORMAL. THIS was NORMAL. .
not anymore.
......On a HIGH NOTE:)
Went shopping yesterday
it was one of those trips to the dressing room i will never forget. Like those depressing trips i use to always deal with, its tooo little, (next size).. ITS too little, .... "fat in the mirror"......frustrated
But Yesterday was another thing
Yesterday I stood shocked.
I looked and looked at my image in the mirror not believing the jeans actually zipped up.
I yelled at my daughter who was in the room next door "what size are you?" .. she said "5".......
"no way. ....cant believe it"
she said "what what what"
I said "I just zipped up a 5"
she said "COOOOOOL MOM.. we can share!"
me.
size jr 5
last time I was that size I was a sr in Highschool and I never ate. I would have one meal a day... sometimes just a candy bar and a coke. I was skin and bones. That was 23 years ago!
THIS IS DIFFERENT. THIS IS THE HEALTHY FIT ME....a very low sugar me. A me that LOVES healthy food and the energy I get from fueling my body!
I still cant believe it. My Mind isnt caught up with my body.
I bought a pair of dress pants......the jeans were nice but DD and I are going shopping again today hoping for a bit of a better deal ......:) it will be nice to have a pair of jeans that arent saggy bottom britches anymore :)
Off we go! :) ......oh.. and I am hoping to find some snazzy 6 inch heals to go with the jeans LOL :)
I do
I dont wanna
I do
I am not gonna
I am gonna
I dont feel good
I will feel better if I do
going back home
no your going to stay
but i dont wanna
but, no, really... you do."
THAT was my conversation with myself this morning. 5am, drizzling rain dark HUMID, I had NO energy. EVERYTHING was telling me to go home, get back in bed. I drove the car to campus. Parked. Sat there. "i dont wanna". I sat. .........
I started the car up, pulled out and started to leave....."I dont have any energy".. "I want to go home to bed"........Put it in reverse and parked again. "If i am here, i might as well"
I got out of the car, started walking, started running, "I dont wanna".... "I am going home"....turned around, took 10 steps ........"NO.. I can go home after a lap...only after 2 miles...THEN.. I can go home"
"you will feel better if you do it anyway"........
so
I sucked it up
I did it anyway.
I got to the car
I was still tired. no energy.
came home. happy I didnt it anyway. Husband was awake. did pushups with him. he had already done 20, 17, 15 ......So i did 20, 15, 10 and 5. Then... he threw my legs down.. for leg lifts I did 2 sets of 20 of those.. and they were HARD.. he was tough on me. .. ... and then I sat on his back while he did pushups (like Jillian does LOL)
I have now eaten breakfast, showered, and rested. I am happy I did my workout and look forward to having more energy tomorrow.
wonder why i have had this issue today?
You guessed it.
I ate too much sugar yesterday. I LOVE the fact I can feel what it does to my body now. I use to walk around in a daze, a blur, no energy, it was NORMAL. THIS was NORMAL. .
not anymore.
......On a HIGH NOTE:)
Went shopping yesterday
it was one of those trips to the dressing room i will never forget. Like those depressing trips i use to always deal with, its tooo little, (next size).. ITS too little, .... "fat in the mirror"......frustrated
But Yesterday was another thing
Yesterday I stood shocked.
I looked and looked at my image in the mirror not believing the jeans actually zipped up.
I yelled at my daughter who was in the room next door "what size are you?" .. she said "5".......
"no way. ....cant believe it"
she said "what what what"
I said "I just zipped up a 5"
she said "COOOOOOL MOM.. we can share!"
me.
size jr 5
last time I was that size I was a sr in Highschool and I never ate. I would have one meal a day... sometimes just a candy bar and a coke. I was skin and bones. That was 23 years ago!
THIS IS DIFFERENT. THIS IS THE HEALTHY FIT ME....a very low sugar me. A me that LOVES healthy food and the energy I get from fueling my body!
I still cant believe it. My Mind isnt caught up with my body.
I bought a pair of dress pants......the jeans were nice but DD and I are going shopping again today hoping for a bit of a better deal ......:) it will be nice to have a pair of jeans that arent saggy bottom britches anymore :)
Off we go! :) ......oh.. and I am hoping to find some snazzy 6 inch heals to go with the jeans LOL :)
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LU!!!
You inspire me!